About This Blog

I wrote this blog about my marriage to a transgender person, starting in January of 2016. We have since divorced. I’ve slowed down on posting here, and at one point, decided I’d close this blog altogether and start a different one. I made all the posts private and temporarily changed the name.

But then emails started pouring in. Trans widows, parents of trans teens and assorted regular people told me that they loved my blog, shared it with others, referenced it and didn’t want to see it disappear. So I’m re-releasing these blog articles, a few at a time. Note the dates — most don’t represent what’s going on in my life, but what went on in my life a couple of years ago.

I have other projects in the works and I’ll keep you posted on those. But for now, thank you for your support, and enjoy these re-released posts. Perhaps “enjoy” isn’t the right word. In any case, it’s good to be back.


“First, they are always changing their creed and expanding their demands: yesterday’s mandatory vocabulary will become tomorrow’s epithets; yesterday’s enlightenment will be tomorrow’s benighted bigotry; yesterday’s requirements of Science and Medicine and Justice are tomorrow’s suicide-inducing oppression.

Second, even as their own position shifts, the activists are absolutely closed off to contrary evidence: they call for the censure of honest researchers; they refuse to give any consideration to competing interests of privacy or safety; they reject alternative therapies that may be favored by parents or doctors.

Third, because the transgender movement is so close-minded, it inclines toward coercion.

All of this suggests a posture of defensiveness—that activists know their claims can’t stand up to scrutiny. The movement has to keep patching and shoring up its own beliefs, policing the faithful, coercing the heretics and punishing apostates, because as soon as its furious efforts flag for a moment or someone successfully stands up to it, the whole charade is exposed. That’s what happens when your dogmas are so contrary to obvious, basic, everyday truths. “

Ryan T. Anderson, When Harry Became Sally

Queer Theory Glossary

In case you’ve had trouble keeping up with the spate of new queer theory terms, here’s a handy glossary for your reference.

Queer – A straight person with an interesting haircut.

Non-binary/genderqueer – A chubby young female, typically 16-28, who has dyed her hair blue. Is probably what was once called a lesbian, but she doesn’t like that word.

Lesbian – A man in his 40’s who works in IT and started wearing his wife’s panties last year.

Transgender – A person whose aversion to society’s made-up gender stereotypes should be taken way more seriously than everyone else’s aversion to society’s made-up gender stereotypes.

Pansexual – Someone who likes men who dress in masculine clothes and men who dress in feminine clothes.

TERF – A mature woman who goes about her business without thinking about men enough. The party that should be held responsible when a redneck man beats up a male prostitute.

Cis – Someone who daydreams wistfully about putting on appropriate clothing and showing their genitals to the doctor.

Sexual orientation – Bigotry in the form of having opinions about whose genitals you like to touch.

Intersectionality – Remembering to include a variety of different types of men in your feminism.

Transmisogyny – When straight white men can’t get other people to say the things they want them to say, and it feels worse than any form of oppression anyone else on the planet has ever experienced.

Ze/Hir – Pronouns you can request to disrupt college classes when you haven’t done the assigned work.

Gay – A passé identity that isn’t cool enough anymore and needs rebranding.

Asexual – A person who feels left out.

Intersex – Probably all of us. I mean, you’ve never had a chromosome test, have you. HAVE YOU?

Edit: A sincere thank you to whoever made a snazzy graphic of this and gave me credit. Nicely done.




Expand What it Means to Be a Man

“Shootings, whether they’re in Parkland, Orlando, Las Vegas or Sutherland Springs, all tend have one thing in common. It’s that they’re almost always perpetrated by men.

Female mass killers are ‘so rare that it just hasn’t been studied.’

The problem is that some men do not have the coping skills to deal with the fact that everyone does not think that they are special.

Teach young men that not getting exactly what they want is fine. Teach that healing, not killing, is something powerful you can do as a man. Teach your sons to be gentle as they go through life.

– Jennifer Wright – Men Are Responsible for Mass Shootings: How Toxic Masculinity is Killing Us

“Last week, 17 people, most of them teenagers, were shot dead at a Florida school [that] now joins the ranks of Sandy Hook, Virginia Tech, Columbine and too many other sites of American carnage. What do these shootings have in common? Girls aren’t pulling the triggers. It’s boys. It’s almost always boys.

We don’t have a model of masculinity that allows for fear or grief or tenderness or the day-to-day sadness that sometimes overtakes us all.

There has to be a way to expand what it means to be a man.”

– Michael Ian Black – The Boys Are Not All Right

Teach boys they can be gentle. Expand what it means to be a man. What a novel idea.

But we don’t even try to do that anymore, do we? We just take all the men who step outside the mold and call them women. Just like your homophobic grandpa did.

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Why Female Reproductive Health is a Women’s Issue

That headline would have seemed like a parody or a joke a few short years ago. But alas, here we are.

A tweeter recently advised that if you attend the women’s march,

“it is CRUICIAL [sic] that you do with an INTERSECTIONAL mindset. Centering reproductive systems at the heart of these demonstrations is reductive and exclusionary.”

Guess who this tweet was posted by? Nah, the quiz is too easy and you’ve already guessed. It was posted by a male. Specifically, the kind of male who wants to make his interest in sex-role performativity define and supersede women’s issues. Judging by Twitter and all sorts of other social media, he echos the sentiments of many other males who aren’t getting the attention they desire from feminism, as well as females who have learned to make disgruntled males their highest priority even within their own movement.

This tweet occurred in a context in which a woman booed and held a sign at a women’s march to protest a particular speaker, a male called “Hailey Heartless” whose feminist credentials included bragging about his job as a self-proclaimed “sadist” and hoping to school women on such vital life skills as “taking amazing selfies” and “contouring.” And in the context of heightened worry about the “exclusiveness” of pussy hats (with claims of racism sloppily tacked on–nobody’s labia are fuchsia–to make the claims of male-exclusion seem less silly). No word yet on whether Trump was also “exclusive” when he grabbed pussies instead of dicks during his sexual assault rampages.

I think even trans activists themselves have lost track of what they stand for. What was once a plea to stop equating “womanhood” with female reproductive organs, as in the phrase “abortion services for women” (versus just “abortion services”) morphed into a bizarre assertion that female reproductive organs are never to be mentioned in any context EVAR. (Dicks are still ok, of course, especially at women’s marches).

But also. Female reproductive issues are women’s issues.

It was not until males became involved in feminism that these claims of “exclusion” surfaced. Somehow, before transgender activism, women who didn’t have personal experience with some of the concerns of feminism refrained from yelling at and trying to silence other women who did. For example, some women don’t use birth control, like lesbians, infertile women, older women, celibate women, and some members of that rare and prized species, the intersex woman. And yet, these groups of women understood the importance of birth control. They refrained from showing up at women’s marches and trying to shut down workshops on the topic.

There’s a really simple reason why.

Feminism, like any activism, is not about gains for individuals. It’s about freedom from oppression for an entire class of people.

As it turns out, birth control is more than a neat little thingie that might get an individual woman out of a bind. It’s a big, enormous, societal thing that means the difference between life and death, freedom and slavery, having a career and being financially destitute, being an independent agent and being beholden to a husband, participating in public life and not, being sick and being well. For women. It means all this, and more, all over the world.

As it turns out, lesbians, infertile women, older women, celibate women, intersex women, and all sorts of other kinds of women, by virtue of being women, care about this. We care about this because its relevance is obvious to us. Its relevance is obvious to us because we have the bodies affected by these issues and we live in the world that punishes us when we are not vigilant about protecting our bodies.

We can visualize how our life would change if we got pregnant accidentally, got raped, had to navigate the world with small children, felt trapped in a home with a domestic abuser, got a fistula, lived where non-virgins are stoned to death, and many other reproduction-related horrors. We can visualize this because we are women. We wouldn’t think of saying, “I don’t need birth control, so screw the rest of you.”

That’s why feminists are appalled by female genital mutilation, even when it’s geographically remote. That’s why we care about health services for poor women even if we have our own money and health insurance. That’s why we want teenage girls to get better school guidance counseling even if we already have a good job. We don’t feel “excluded.” We feel solidarity.

If you don’t feel solidarity with a group of people, there might be a reason for that.

Let’s think about what topics “include” rather than “exclude” the participants of the average women’s march.

Approximately 50% of the people in the world have two X chromosomes and the reproductive organs capable of gestating young. Let’s call them “women” for convenience. Because we need a word for that. And let’s think globally, because women in developing countries need the gains of feminism the most. What’s discussed at a feminist event isn’t just for the women present. It’s for all women.

That segment of the population needs advocacy for the problems associated with owning those particular organs (to include both taking care of those organs and mitigating the oppressions that happen to people who own those organs). Let’s call that advocacy feminism. I mean, we used to, and that worked for a really long time. It worked until we allowed the people who don’t need that advocacy to silence the people who do.

To this number we can, if you like, add those who “identify” as women. Transgender people make up around .06% of the population by the latest estimates. That percentage includes people who are already female, so we can’t count them twice. We need to identify only the males, or AMABs, if you prefer recasting reality as an oppressive delivery room practice. So as a guess, let’s take half of it, which is .03%.

So now the number of people who need feminism, plus the number who think they do, is 50.03% of the population, or 50.03 people out of 100.

Approximately 50 of those people need care and advocacy for concerns related to female biology. Approximately one-third of a person does not.

I think we’re being generous with the transgender estimate here, because a vast number of people in the world are too busy trying to find food and to avoid getting shot at to even seek the gender-expression-related validation that feminism apparently owes them.

So the topic of reproductive health includes most women, and should interest even those who aren’t “included,” if we care about liberating the class of women worldwide.

Talking about female reproductive organs destigmatizes female sexuality and female bodies, which is absolutely imperative to creating a world that will stop tolerating the host of torturous societal crimes committed against women all over the globe.

We live in a world where female toddlers are held down to have their genitals sliced off so that the men who will choose them for marriage can be sure they are “pure.” We live in a world where men throw acid in the faces of women over sexual rejection, leaving them blind and disfigured for life. We live in a world where stoning a female teenager to death for rejecting a marriage proposal is called an “honor killing.” We live in a world where grown men marry nine-year-old girls.

As long as we live in this world, we absolutely cannot thwart the vital work of destigmatizing female bodies in favor of debating the universality of the symbolism conveyed by knitted hats.

Anyone who puts up with this type of derailing is an enemy to feminism and to women.

Any male who prioritizes policing “inclusiveness” over solving the heinous problems facing women worldwide demonstrates how very little he understands about womanhood.

And what did the presumably more “inclusive” speaker talk about?

Selfies. Contouring. Celebrating sex work.

The woman carrying the sign didn’t look like a narcissist, a makeup aficionado, or a prostitute. Maybe she felt “excluded” by these topics?

Women in developing countries don’t have time for selfies or makeup tips, either. And when they perform “sex work” it’s often because they were kidnapped and sold into its service. So they’re not exactly in the mood to celebrate.

It would seem that selfies, contouring, and celebrating sex work are rather exclusionary. And being exclusionary is a problem, isn’t it? Should we ban these topics? Isn’t that how this works?

Our renowned speaker also offered to teach women how to “practice excellent hygiene.” Does he know that “hygiene” is one of the justifications for female genital mutilation? Is he aware of the long history of religious traditions that exclude women from public life for being “unclean”?

Could there be a reason for his complete and utterly inappropriate empathy fail in this matter? For example, that he’s not a woman by absolutely any useful definition?

Interesting, isn’t it, that it’s the navel-gazing genderqueer crowd, in their relentless pursuit of validation, that has the incredible luxury of dismissing the actual violence faced by many women in the world in favor of fashion concerns. And yet, it is this same crowd who so often professes their “intersectionality” and laments the “white privilege” of everyone else.

Hailey Heartless is a male fetishist who enjoys hurting people for a sexual thrill. Hailey Heartless cares more about fashion than women’s issues. He thinks that women need his advice on how to clean themselves. He wants you to shut up about your gross vagina and your period. These are all deeply conservative traits that he shares with countless other run-of-the-mill men.

Fetishism is almost unheard of in the female population, and five of the six most common fetishes involve clothing. What he’s doing is not a female thing. It’s a male thing.

Women, this person’s desire to wear a latex corset, pee in a new restroom and be called by his preferred pronouns are not your issue.

Reproductive health, among other things, is your issue. It is a women’s issue.

We have to stop waiting for males to tell us that it’s ok to fight for our rights. They are not going to. We have to fight for them anyway.

By All Means, Be Your True, Authentic Self. Unless That’s a Rapist.

If you’re spending your time arguing that a nurse has the right to get his hands in a woman’s vagina when she doesn’t want them there, you are a rape apologist. If you think she should drop her pants without complaint for any and all who feel qualified to get into them, even if she’s uncomfortable, then you are a rape apologist. If you recast her discomfort as bigotry, that is rapey as fuck.

News flash: A woman’s vagina is not a public service and her refusal to make it available is never “unfair.” Any and all decisions she makes about its availability or lack thereof are valid.

News flash: No one has the right to touch another person without her consent. Not if they’re in a medical setting, not because you don’t like their definition of “gender,” not because the rebuffed person feels offended or denied. News flash: You wouldn’t be the first rape apologist to feel rebuffed, offended or denied.

News flash: People who respect women don’t try to override their discomfort. That’s a rapist’s tactic.

If you’re arguing that a person who experiences an initial attraction to someone and then loses interest when they learn more about the person’s biology is “transphobic” and “cowardly” then you’re a rape apologist. If you’re questioning or shaming them for backing out of sex they don’t want, you’re a rape apologist. If you recast a person’s lost interest as latent desire that they’re afraid to admit to, that’s rapey as fuck.

News flash: You wouldn’t be the first rape apologist to use “they actually wanted it” to justify rape. That’s pretty much the classic rapist M.O.

News flash: You aren’t entitled to sex. Not from someone who seemed attracted to you for a minute. Not because you don’t like their definition of “gender.” Not because you suspect more bravery on their part would get you laid more.

If you’re arguing that my lowered sexual response to you when you refused to meet my sexual needs was an inconvenience that hindered your ability to extract the frequency and type of sex out of me that you felt entitled to, that’s rapey as fuck.

News Flash: I didn’t owe sex to someone who didn’t inspire my desire and who stopped even trying to do so. Even if we were married. Even if he would have liked more enthusiasm for his cosmetic and medical interventions. Even if my waning sexual desire conflicted with his need for validation.

At this point, I’ve come to understand I married a narcissist. But it’s still hard to swallow that I married a rape apologist.

If you recast women’s discomfort with sexual situations as an inconvenience to someone else, anyone else, for any reason, ever, then you are a rape apologist.

Anyone who respects women respects their right to their sexual boundaries. Even when those boundaries seem mysterious. Even when they seem contradictory. Even when they seem unfair. Anyone who sympathizes with the would-be boundary crosser over the woman who says no is a rape apologist.